the crow

sunday afternoon in the park,
i saw a boy playing with a dead bird.
holding it up by one wing he declared, "it's a crow,"
and then began to beat it with a stick.

me, @panhandle

The Glamorous Life,
by prince

She wears a long fur coat of mink
Even in the summer time
Everybody knows from the coy little wink
The girl's got a lot on her mind

She's got big thoughts, big dreams
And a big brown Mercedes sedan
What I think this girl
She really wants
Is to be in love with a man

She wants to lead the Glamorous Life
She don't need a man's touch
She wants to lead the Glamorous Life
Without love
It ain't much

She saw him standing in the section marked
If you have to ask you can't afford it lingerie
She threw him bread and said make me scream
In the dark what could he say

Boys with small talk and small minds
Really don't impress me in bed
She said, I need a man's man, baby
Diamonds and furs
Love would only conquer my head

She wants to lead the Glamorous Life
She don't need a man's touch
She wants to lead the Glamorous Life
Without love
It ain't much

They made haste in the brown sedan
They drove to 55 Secret street
They made love and by the seventh wave
She knew she had a problem
She thought real love is real scary
Money only pays the rent
Love is forever
That's all your life
Love is heaven sent
It's glamorous

She wants to lead the Glamorous Life
She don't need a man's touch
She wants to lead the Glamorous Life
Without love
It ain't much.

from True Romance
by Quentin Tarantino

sittin' on the side of a billboard...

Alabama: Please shut up! I'm trying to come clean, okay? I've been a call-girl for exactly four days and you're my third customer. I want you to know that I'm not damaged goods. I'm not what they call Florida white trash. I'm a good person and when it comes to relationships, I'm one-hundred percent, I'm one hundred percent... monogamous.

Clarence Worley: You stay with one guy?

Alabama: Exactly! If I'm with you, then I'm with you, and I don't want anybody else. And I feel really goofy saying this, after only knowing you one night, and me being a call girl and all... but I think I love you...

Clarence Worley: You just said you love me, now if I say I love you and just throw caution to the wind and let the chips fall where they may and you're lying to me I'm gonna fckin' die.

Alabama: I'm not lying to you, and I swear from this moment forth- I'll never lie to you again

the concrete summer

by me

the pigeons were not present
seagulls flew nearby
I waded as far as I could until my lips touched the sky
the wind was soft and gentle
and blew by the coconuts of plush plastic
my surfing skills blow but my laugh was fantastic
I adore august when the winter is far away
sharp turn, warp speed; iridescent play.

Onto something rather specific and scientific:

"light is essential to our perception the world around us: providing a medium by which to link objects around us and our sensory processes i.e. the retina of the eye and its innervations and the visual cortex. It is the radiant energy of light that allows this reactionary process to occur. Current thought models light as comprising of both electric and magnetic fields that oscillate and propagate each other reciprocally giving light its radiant properties (light also has a particle nature: the explanation of which is too long for inclusion in this essay).

For this to occur light must travel at approximately 3 x 108m/s. Light can be classified into the electromagnetic spectrum which covers the many different wavelengths that is radiating energy can cover. In this the visual spectrum constitutes only a small part: from 400-700nm with different wavelengths corresponding to different colours i.e. red is 700nm and blue 450nm.

So it can be seen that light exerts a physical effect upon detectors such as the eye of film in photography. It follows then that the limits of perceptions of the recording material must mimic that of the eye: with equal quality of detail, colour and spatial awareness or else it would not be physically possible to perceive." (from)


"the influence of mind on a physical system that cannot be entirely accounted for by the mediation of any known physical energy."


"My ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the Force around you; here, between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere, yes. Even between the land and the ship."


telepathic impressions: subjective imagery whose source is outside the individual's organism.

"The energy of the mind is the essence of life."


"You can enjoy the breeze of a fan only when you have both a fan and the electrical energy to operate it."
~Sri Sathya Sai Baba


when fatima rings the dinner bell

with my honey at the head of the table
I serve the sunday dinner
for 3 or 15 depending on how many arrive that day
macaroni, most served
with sauce stirred all morning
sprinkled with parmesan
with nothing in it for me, and her,
with just meatballs for those 3
and with sausage and pepperoni for the guys over there.
and just scrambled hamburg for the littler two.
and in this circle of peace and eating
comes in the door
the love of my grandmother
who wants my world to be...
alright, no matter what hurt arises.
because we are together
in a good family.

in honor of my grama's dishes that I inherited
recently; that she always used to serve us
sunday dinner on. now :) they are mine!

Oh, Great Spirit
Whose voice I hear in the winds,
And whose breath gives life to all the world,
hear me, I am small and weak,
I need your strength and wisdom.
Let me walk in beauty and make my eyes ever behold
the red and purple sunset.
Make my hands respect the things you have
made and my ears sharp to hear your voice.
Make me wise so that I may understand the things
you have taught my people.
Let me learn the lessons you have
hidden in every leaf and rock.
I seek strength, not to be greater than my brother,
but to fight my greatest enemy - myself.
Make me always ready to come to you
with clean hands and straight eyes.
So when life fades, as the fading sunset,
my Spirit may come to you without shame.

(translated by Lakota Sioux Chief Yellow Lark in 1887)
published in Native American Prayers - by the Episcopal Church.




"It's like sticking your hand into what you think is a cool stream in order to find relief on a hot day, only to discover that the water is boiling."

turn towards repair.
veer from the rocks.
revel in your solitude.
and always may you be well.

quote from endquote

Walk and touch peace every moment.
Walk and touch happiness every moment.
Each step brings a fresh breeze.
Each step makes a flower bloom.
Kiss the Earth with your feet.
Bring the Earth your love and happiness.
The Earth will be safe
when we feel safe in ourselves.

(by Thich Nhat Hanh)

I would love to change the world, but they won't give me the source code
- Unknown

Let me tell you why you are here.
You are here because you have the gift.

What gift?

I've watched you, Neo. You do not use a computer like a tool. You use it like it was part of yourself. What you can do inside a computer is not normal. I know. I've seen it. What you do is magic.

Neo shrugs.

It's not magic.

But it is, Neo. It is. How else would you describe what has been happening to you?

He leans forward.

We are trained in this world to accept only what is rational and logical. Have you ever wondered why?

Neo shakes his head.

As children, we do not separate the possible from the impossible which is why the younger a mind is the easier it is to free while a mind like yours can be very difficult.

Free from what?

From the Matrix.

Neo locks at his eyes but only sees a reflection of himself.

Do you want to know what it is, Neo?

Neo swallows and nods his head.

It's that feeling you have had all your life. That feeling that something was wrong with the world. You don't know what it is but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad, driving you to me. But what is it?

The LEATHER CREAKS as he leans back.

The Matrix is everywhere, it's all around us, here even in this room. You can see it out your window, or on your television. You feel it when you go to work, or go to church or pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

What truth?

That you are a slave, Neo. That ou, like everyone else, was born into bondage...
... kept inside a prison that you cannot smell, taste, or touch. A prison for your mind.

Outside, the WIND BATTERS a loose PANE of glass.

Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself.


Hold out your hands.

In Neo's right hand, Morpheus drops a red pill.

This is your last chance. After this, there is no going back.

In his left, a blue pill.

You take the blue pill and the story ends. You wake in your bed and you believe whatever you want to believe.

The pills in his open hands are reflected in the glasses.

You take the red pill and you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.

Neo feels the smooth skin of the capsules, with the moisture growing in his palms.

Remember that all I am offering is the truth. Nothing more.

Neo opens his mouth and swallows the red pill. The Cheshire smile returns.

Follow me.

He leads Neo into the other room, which is cramped with high-tech equipment, glowing ash-bliie and electric green from the racks of monitors.

Trinity, Apoc and Cypher look up as they enter.


I knew he would.

1f u c4n r34d th1s u r34lly n33d t0 g37 l41d
- tee shirt

Don't freak out!
I'll talk you through it....!

Is that 10 inches for number 1 or number 2? hmmmm?

TP-Dispenser Shot Taken @ Local Lodge:

(It's a swell place!)

(clip/thich nhat hahn)

"By cultivating the energy of mindfulness, you can heal your body and your consciousness, because mindfulness is the energy of the Buddha. In Christianity, it is said that Jesus has the energy of God, of the Holy Spirit, within him. That is why he is able to heal so many people. His healing energy is called the Holy Spirit. In Buddhist language, that energy is the energy of the Buddha, the energy of mindfulness..."

'Slowly, slowly' is a powerful mantra
article pulled from economic times

This is a story about ancient wisdom rediscovered because of folly. It started in pain - when a young man bent upon improving himself with yoga ruptured a spinal disc - but it ended up in ecstasy. One day while doing Mahamudra, he heard a popping sound from his back.

What was initially dismissed as a creaking joint turned out to be something serious: the tingle that went down from hip to toe soon turned into a burning throb, which eventually degenerated into paralysing pain. The young man had to be hospitalised.

As he lay with his leg slung in traction, the injured aspirant confronted his changed circumstances. 'No more yoga,' the doctors had warned. 'You ought to have known better than to fool around with potentially dangerous techniques (Mahamudra allegedly 'cures' old age and arouses inner energy called Kundalini), that too without proper guidance from a bona fide guru.' He went into a shell and was rude to the physiotherapist the hospital sent.

After discharge, he became sedentary. But his health problems multiplied. That's when he decided to go back to yoga, but this time with guidance. He met with the world-renowned yogi (whose books he'd used earlier as an auto-didact). The best attribute, the yogi said, was daring, and enlightened enthusiasm.

That ruled out pig-headed practice. The second attribute was constancy in carefully calibrated exercise. 'The guiding principle always was shanai, shanai (slowly, slowly),' the yogi added. 'It comes from the same root as Shani, the name of the great planet who limps slowly across the skies.'

But above all, one must never underestimate the power of what seem like absurdly simple and slow steps. As you sleep, for example, bend your leg and dig the heel into the bed at an angle of 45 degrees. 'Even invalids can perform this nameless kriya,' the yogi continued, 'which nonetheless partakes of the very essence of yogic asana - that which proves steady (sthiram) and comfortable (sukham) - as defined in Patanjali's Yoga Sutra.'

Thus, the aspirant learnt his massively effective baby-simple steps, which involved nothing more arduous than slight raising of limb and fist, with mindful clenching and relaxation. But the new regime used those very rehab exercises that he had violently rejected in the hospital! His ego had prevented him from recognising the true guru. She'd worn a hospital smock instead of saffron.

I hope they have pudding...

Harry Potter:
[on getting to the Ministry]
So how are we going to get to London?

Luna Lovegood: We fly, of course.

without shoes, I can walk barefoot in the cold wet dirt.
without dirt, I can fly by wings of the invisible.
without faith in the invisible, I am alone.
alone I fall; together with you, I stand and face the darkness.
with a smile.

Alabama fell hard.

"Any time of the day is a good time for pie."
- Fabienne, Pulp Fiction

Cross Words: Talking About Bad Feelings Helps Control Them


CHICAGO - Perhaps all those blog posts you wrote about your breakup really did have a purpose.

Naming feelings takes some of the emotional impact out of them by engaging a brain region that aids self-control, according to new research.

In a clever series of experiments, UCLA psychologist Matthew Lieberman found that labeling a picture of someone who looked angry as "angry" reduced the negative emotional feelings that most people feel when viewing such a photograph.

"Putting feelings into words activates this region that's capable of producing emotional regulatory outcomes, which could explain why putting feelings into words dampens them down," Lieberman said in a presentation at the American Association for the Advancement of Sciences annual meeting on Saturday.

While plenty of psychological treatments have involved talking about one's feelings, Lieberman's work is some of the first to demonstrate the underlying neural basis for the therapeutic nature of talking something out. The research is based on the idea that engaging a part of the brain that aids in self-control, the right ventrolateral prefrontal cortex, helps put a damper on feelings, no matter how you get that part of the brain involved.

First, the researchers had subjects view photographs of men and women with some positive and some negative facial expressions. The negative facial expressions tended to stimulate activity in the amygdala, a region of the brain associated with processing emotions.

The researchers had the subjects play a simple game while looking at the photos. If the photo was of a woman (and 80 percent of the pictures were) they pressed the "go" button, but if the picture was of a man, they didn't press the button - their brain had to intervene to inhibit the motor response of pressing the button. Simply exerting self-control over the motor function by not pressing the button led to reduced negative emotional response. The idea is that the self-control area of the prefrontal cortex turns on and helps all forms of self-control. They call this "inhibitory spillover."

In the next set of studies, they had one set of people label the photos with simple gender-name matching - match Seth to the picture of a man, not Sarah. Another group was asked to name the emotions on the faces of the people in the pictures. The subjects who named the emotions experienced less negative emotion associated with negative images. By focusing on the emotions in the pictures to label them, the subjects engaged that piece of the prefrontal cortex and "down regulated" their intensity.

It's important to note that the regulatory effect didn't come from increased self-awareness about one's relationship to the emotion. The more tightly regulated emotional response was practically a side effect of the cognitive task of labeling the emotion in the face.The researchers postulate that the same principle is at work when you talk about your feelings: it's the bare fact of labeling your emotions that counts, not whatever conclusions you draw in the course of verbal expression (or poetry writing).

It's possible that these techniques could be used to treat fear-based conditions from arachnophobia (fear of spiders) to zemmiphobia (fear of the great mole rat).

One downside: The researchers found that naming happy feelings also reduces their intensity, so the next time you're watching the Puppy Cam, you can keep all those "They are so cute!" comments to yourself.

terminator: katherine brewster, have you sustained injury?

kate: drop dead asshole!

terminator: I'm unable to comply.

winter sunshine

the forecast was sunshine
and, sure enough, the winter sun rolled out of bed around 8:15,

steam cleared off the windows, the cats stretched out full,
and the plant bobbed its phototropic way towards the rays.

the people on the street seemed to be smiling,
and even the grumpy old cat,
who turns away, indignant, every morning when i pass by,
looked me straight on, and crinkled his eyes as if to say
good morning.

CSI Hoth (promo)

...and i thought they smelled bad on the outside.

(watch the teaser ad)

by Stephenie Meyer
from Twilight

My family, we're different from others of our kind.

We only hunt animals.
We learn to control our thirst.

But you...

Your scent.

It's like a drug to me.

You're like my own
personal brand of heroin.


Shifu: Master! I have... it's very bad news!

Oogway: Ah, Shifu. There is just news. There is no good or bad.

Shifu: Master, your vision. Your vision was right!
Tai-Lung has broken out of prison! He's on his way!


Oogway: That *is* bad news.

not bad meaning bad
but bad meaning good...

- that is.

rowdy wind, howling
blustery blowing things down
rain so chilly. yay!

(october new-haiku by sms)

everybody get up
clap your hands and dance to the beat
whatever you do little darlin' it's cool
just get up out your seat
and wave your flag because everybody plays a part
one world united singing the song of the heart

Fallen leaves lying on the grass in the November sun bring more happiness than the daffodils!
(cyril connolly)

What would you have with me?

remy ratatouille in paris with eiffel tower

Nini Legs-In-The-Air:
Don't worry Shakespeare, you'll get
your ending. Once the Duke gets his end-in.

the turtles spin around and round
the song is in my mind
the world external is alive
and the whistle is screaming

cowabunga dudes!

rings of gold and hobbit feet

too many days outside make one content
and see the world for how it really is
between the gloom and doom
a ray of light that makes this world One.

it can't be undone
but it will never be the same
with forces of the divine wow, love, and my own perseverance...
i cannot be undone.

the end.
loose hanging couplet:

the milky way
any day any mood anyway...


start opening qigong commencing movement open and close hands single whip right waving hands in clouds open and close hands brush knee playing the lute parry and a punch block and close push that mountain open and close hands closing movement

"In center of your palm there's an acupuncture point called Lao Gong. The name doesn't matter, but this point is the center of the energy of your upper limb, and when the two points are facing each other, they are communicating. And then it grows energy. Well, it's a good way to think about it. So with Sun style, one of the characteristics is very often the two palms are facing each other. So keep that in mind, and let's do that one more time. Hands up and breathe in..."

Dr. Paul Lamb (

To Fight Pain
Sniff: Lavender or Peppermint
Looking for ways to use less pain medication, doctors at New York University Medical Center exposed patients undergoing laparoscopic gastric bypass surgery to lavender oil (applied to the anesthesiology face masks they wore during surgery). Those patients required substantially less morphine and needed fewer analgesics afterward. Peppermint helps too. After a review of several studies, a Wheeling Jesuit University researcher concluded that it can ease headache pain, and German headache researchers report that the brisk smell is as effective as acetaminophen.

Try this: Next time you have a headache, inhale the scent from a handkerchief sprinkled with a few drops of lavender or peppermint.

To Learn Something New
Sniff: Rosemary
Next time a presentation or new software program drives you crazy, think of Shakespeare's poor Ophelia. After Hamlet made her nuts, she toddled around the castle picking rosemary, muttering, "That's for remembrance." Researchers at the University of Northumbria in the United Kingdom found she was on to something. After exposure to rosemary oil, 48 college students outperformed a control group on memory tests and felt more alert throughout.

Try this: Buy a plant or two for your windowsill, so you can pluck a branch to smell while you're studying or memorizing something for work.

To Sleep More Deeply
Sniff: Lavender
There's a reason people have been filling pillows with lavender flowers for centuries: Earlier research demonstrated that lavender increases deep slow-wave sleep, and recent studies from England and Korea show that the flower also helps people with mild insomnia.

Try this: Spritz your bedpost with lavender essence just before bed.
but wait, there's more!
read smells that boost your health at prevention magazine.

Be Good Family :)

terminator: your levity is good, it relieves tension and the fear of death.

"Humor is infectious. The sound of roaring laughter is far more contagious than any cough, sniffle, or sneeze. When laughter is shared, it binds people together and increases happiness and intimacy. In addition to the domino effect of joy and amusement, laughter also triggers healthy physical changes in the body. Humor and laughter strengthen your immune system, boost your energy, diminish pain, and protect you from the damaging effects of stress. Best of all, this priceless medicine is fun, free, and easy to use."

read the full, awesome article
Laughter Is the Best Medicine from

don't forget derek!

jump to: cameron eating a pancake

right on.

Young comes from within the heart.

reggie plays mr. christmas

Many things contribute to replenishing a cat's Shen, such as rolling in green grass, dancing after a grasshopper, or preening in a sunbeam.
(from Acu-Cat, by Zidonis and Snow)

what are the odds, right?

ray: before it happened i would have said slim.
but since it did happen, 100%.

CSI.9.919 the descent of man

Eight-sided whispering hallelujah hatrack
Seven-faced marble eye transitory dream doll
Six proud walkers on jingle-bell rainbow
Five men writing in fingers of gold
Four men tracking the great white sperm whale
Three girls wait in a foreign dominion
Ride in the whalebelly
Fade away in moonlight
Sink beneath the waters
To the coral sands below
Now is the time of returning!

(steven > the eleven)

Bronson: Still making big news out of small cases?

Fox: Nothing about me is small Philip, except perhaps my respect for you.

This may be hard to explain

capitalzing on my trim battery lesson
my dad told me,
all batteries are the same :)

and then the bell rang

I'm gonna count to three.
On 3, you come up with a great idea.
(mr. monk)

"sur la velo is on the bike. like literally on the bike. par velo means by bike. so sur la bus would mean on the bus literally like standing on top of a bus. they instead say in the bus, or dans la bus! par l'autobus is by bus."
(celia soto)

right there

quotes about hats!

Look, it's a hat. It's not gonna hurt you. Look.
You're a jittery little thing, aren't you?

Hats. Okay? Hats. If I ever see a hat on a bed in this house, man, like you'll never see me again. I'm gone.

During an audience Pope John-Paul II referred to the role of Mary during the crucifixion of Jesus: "Mary... co-operated during the event itself and in the role of mother; thus her co-operation embraces the whole of Christ's saving work. She alone was associated in this way with the redemptive sacrifice that merited the salvation of all mankind. In union with Christ and in submission to him, she collaborated in obtaining the grace of salvation for all humanity...In God's plan, Mary is the 'woman' (cf. John 2:4; John 19:26), the New Eve, united to the New Adam in restoring humanity to its original dignity. Her cooperation with her Son continues for all time in the universal motherhood which she enjoys in the order of grace. Trusting in this maternal cooperation, let us turn to Mary, imploring her help in all our needs."

(from's article The Virgin Mary as co-redemptrix, mediatrix, and advocate)

"a gift? a gift you can return."

aww cheer up, logan. mutants are hot.

"well i'm off to the candy shop,
same old thing, we did last week
my everlasting gobstopper just crapped out on me."

hey red, they've got rhinestone cowboy. toss me a quarter.

"All I have are the choices I make, and I choose her, come what may."

steve jobs

pastor dave: You know somebody else who got
out of the house and did something? Jesus.

kitty: And lucky for us he did!

click to see full-size!
om%#!&!g! the poster's out lol

"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering." Please check out this great blog from's Bodhipaksa, How to deal with anger. On a personal note, I posted "guards at the gate" earlier this year, and the result has been a calm, happy home!

There's nothing worse than a person who doesn't like to laugh.
~ Reggie Stahlman

gus! Fungus is my bread and butter, you know that.
shawn ~ You know what my bread and butter is? Bread and butter.

+ Come on Gus, this is our fantasy, man. It's like we're hoboes.
~ I don't have a hobo fantasy, Shawn.

shit only rolls downhill if you are below the point of shittage.
try getting on a different hill, or move yourself above all the shit!

What a window-peekin', kiss-killin' kidder you are! (Jackson Stewart)

I had a dream last night, and it fit me like a glove :)
(Butthole Surfers, Whatever)


"everybody stop what you are doing and only pay attention to me!"
(shawn spencer, psychic detective.)

"a dark tower choking the a/v? oh that would not be good!"
(sabrina, when watching her first girl movie with mom, JLo's wedding planner)

get yourself a new girl at lollypop farm

You can't have my heart.
(Snow White)

Summer Games 2012!
Go Team USA

Nick "the Cricket" Miller rocks the New Girl stage!
(hit play, and... wait for it!)

Rock On, Cricket Nick!!

And, thank you Team Chaos for the slideshow embed effort. Well leaped!

No smile can resist the first big flurry of the year!
i <3 my kitten snowpaws!
(and my warm "no way lady" inside cuddlers, just as much) xo!

archival kitten snow paws

"I am a diagnostic tool, not an engineer!"

from The Swarm
by the EMH diagnostic program -
a holographic recreation of the Doctor's creator, Dr. Lewis Zimmerman.

Taking a Picture of You Taking a Picture of Me!


"Oh, what I wouldn't give for a few Borg cubes about now; anything for a little distraction."

Team Chaos, Assemble!

"Oh, snap!"



Johnny Galecki Wears the Suit! (Video)

"Synchronistic events happen when you're intuition or soul is trying to get your attention, to lead you to a certain destination or to change your current direction."
~ John Holland

we heart you, voyager! you made it!
first earth-beings-made craft to make it into deep space lol
remember, "there's coffee in that nebula!"
xo! love team chaos!

Voyager snap of the Great Red Spot on Jupiter!

blondie ~ ariana grande ~ miley
kissing countdown. one-four
be there!

Make it like your birthday everyday!

Mom's Birthday Suit June 2014! xo!

If necessity is the mother of invention...

then Darryl Dixon... is one bad mother.

Daryl Dixon Pulls a MacGyver (Harley's very special video)

Rico: Heyo!

Jackson: What do you want, Rico?

Rico: A jet pack, Jessica Alba, and a chance to play the Artful Dodger in the Broadway revival of Oliver. But that's not why I'm here.

Living like outlaws!
Me and that wild hog friend!

Freeze! Rockkkkkk! white! white! white!

(the plow piles are get)ting higher baby!

Ryan Jackson: Did you believe in UFOs as a kid?
Molly Woods: Believe in them? I wanted to fly them!
(Extant, Season 1, Episode 12)

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